Growing up, just slowly and quickly happens

Today was one of those days that made me truly feel like time does not slow down nor can be replayed. I think of myself as having little ones. I love having little ones. It makes me feel youthful. My boys still seem little and to me they very much are. One day I'm going to be like mothers that I talk to that start their sentences with, "When my kids were little..." I'm never going to be ready for that sentence starter. It seems so far but I know it will go faster than I can imagine. As a mom, my days seem to quickly turn into months and my months quickly into years. Maddy now 3 and Jaxson soon to be 7 (he is now in first grade). They still are my forever little ones.

Today we were driving to school and Jaxson was singing word from word a current song on the radio (Breakeven by The Script). I looked in my rear view mirror to see this little boy that is very much his own being. Singing the words to a pop song, looking out the window of the car, with his camoflage backpack, I thought to myself when did this happen? As we get to school he unbuckles and hops out of the car and says "See ya Mom!" "Have a good day!" I hurry to speak out to him before he is off, almost as to grab back my little boy. I quickly say "Jaxson, do you have your winter hat?" He responds, "Mom I don't need it today it. It suppose to be 60." He amazes me everyday at the little boy he has become, what he knows, what he wants to know, his opinions, and his interests. Tonight he asked me "Mom, I want to find out all the football teams that have won the Super Bowl from 2000 to 2010". I told him I would help him after dinner. He only gets on the computer when we navigate him to one of his favorite educational websites. After washing up from dinner I find him on Google, sounding out the words Super Bowl. I ask him Jaxson, "How did you know to look on Google?" "Mom, because Google can answer everything." I proceeded to help him find the information he wanted to find and talked about not searching on the computer without mom or dad helping. Slowly and quickly my Jaxson is growing up in so many ways. I love watching him grow into such a wonderful little boy. Although, I'm very selfish and want to freeze time and bottle it all up.

My growing up Maddy is ready to do everything independently and all by himself! Tonight he was wanting a snack before dinner. Jason and I of course told him no that he could not have anything to snack on before dinner. He proceeded to ask over and over until it turned into a crying fit. His lines were lines I know we will still be hearing when he is a teenager. He tells us between cries, "Its not fair!" A line I'm sure Jason and I used on our parents. Jason proceeded to tell Maddy "Buddy, life is not fair" a line I know our parents used on us too. He then tells Jason, "You are not going to the beach with me!" "And I'm not going to build a sandcastle with you!" "I don't need your help or mommy's help!" "I can do it by all by myself!" After he realized his little fit was not getting him anywhere and being exhausted from crying my little one cried, "Mommy please hold me." My Maddy is still my little one too, even if he is ready to go to the beach alone and build sandcastles all by himself!